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Thursday, November 26th, 2009
11:01 am - Twitter posts
  • 11:42 Wicked! Despite the wiped address book, the update to the browser is AMAZING! #
  • 14:21 Alright. Address book basically entirely restored (thanks to Tartan intranet, Facebook, and my own insanity this summer). #
  • 18:23 @choochoobear That comic makes me want to cry #
  • 19:07 I think one reason I like Glee so much is how much I identify with Emma's insecurities. #
  • 20:46 Oh man. Cinnamon coffe plus chicken and ranch dressing burp. Weird flavor combination. #
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Wednesday, November 25th, 2009
11:02 am - Twitter posts

  • 08:13 Updated the Blackberry, thanks to @ipjones86, but it wiped my address book. :( #

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Tuesday, November 24th, 2009
11:02 am - Twitter posts

  • 10:59 I am the Comma Nazi. #

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Monday, November 23rd, 2009
11:02 am - Twitter posts
  • 11:07 "I think the sound of balloons popping is like puppies dying" #overheardatthetartan #
  • 15:15 Quote I found online: "Love is friendship set on fire." #
  • 22:11 Put to bed my last ever issue of The Tartan! #
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Sunday, November 22nd, 2009
11:01 am - Twitter posts
  • 12:30 About to embark on Thanksgiving shopping. #
  • 13:37 The bus is now 10 minutes late while I have milk and turkey weighing down my backpack. Thanks, #patransit #
  • 18:38 "Run, run as fast as you can. You can't catch me, I'm the Jesus-bread man!" #overheardatdinner #
  • 20:24 It's silly, but that you brought up a story about me makes me feel loved. #
  • 04:21 Free s'mores? First-years are awesome. #
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Saturday, November 21st, 2009
11:01 am - Twitter posts

  • 02:30 Made out with a 41-year-old man. #

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Friday, November 20th, 2009
11:02 am - Twitter posts
  • 11:57 Interview: Success! I did really well. Now I have to wait to hear from who will be the interim director. #
  • 12:12 @ma3382 Student activities here #
  • 12:39 @JoePolitic That one may not mention it, but the line immediately following it says "May his children be fatherless and his wife a widow." #
  • 15:25 Your accent makes VOIP sound like "wipe." Very distracting. #
  • 16:58 @finallyabandie Why so much shit? #
  • 21:28 "I had white chocolate jasmine thoughts." -Ben #
  • 22:00 @ma3382 That's my standard operating procedure. #
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Thursday, November 19th, 2009
11:02 am - Twitter posts
  • 16:15 That is officially adorable. Someone took the Fence to ask someone out. #
  • 18:09 @cymothoe Should have had me look it over ;-) #
  • 20:00 Don't read into things don't read into things don't read into things don't read into things #
  • 21:50 I missed #Glee for them and they didn't even bother to show up. :( #
  • 08:05 Who wants to wish me luck at my impending interview? #
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Wednesday, November 18th, 2009
11:01 am - Twitter posts
  • 15:01 Facebook wants me to join Match.com. Even social networking sites think I'm lonely. #
  • 16:14 Stop wasting our fucking time making endless drop-down menus that we ALREADY KNOW HOW TO DO and show us how to validate our fucking forms #
  • 17:03 @ma3382 Dreamweaver #
  • 10:37 Story of my life: www.kawaiinot.com/?p=291 #
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Tuesday, November 17th, 2009
11:02 am - Twitter posts
  • 11:53 An additional hour has passed, and STILL no one has returned. FAIL. #
  • 14:03 @cduruk Not to my knowledge #
  • 20:48 @birobot This sounds more like a pity party. #
  • 21:08 I used to love me. Now I'm sick of myself. What the fuck, world? #
  • 01:42 @patrickgage Welcome back #
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Monday, November 16th, 2009
11:01 am - Twitter posts
  • 16:23 Am I hungry because I'm hungry or am I hungry because I'm bored. #
  • 00:57 Gay soap opera. I just wish I wasn't the underdog everyone pities in this show. #
  • 08:49 Life is pain. Anyone who tells you different is selling something. #
  • 10:27 You should not leave a note on the SoHo door that you "will be back shortly" if you're going to be gone for half an hour. #
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1:43 am - It's official.
Tyson and Isaac are now dating.

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Sunday, November 15th, 2009
11:02 am - Twitter posts
  • 14:16 On my way to lunch with Ida. So glad I've been in a good mood these past few days. #
  • 16:04 I definitely have to spend as much time as possible outside now. It's a beautiful day. #
  • 16:27 Dammit, I didn't move anywhere. Why is my Internet connection suddenly sucky? #
  • 19:51 You know your coping sucks when a day's good mood crashes in one brief moment. #
  • 19:55 @birobot Something completely insignificant, really. Just a sighting. #
  • 23:23 That's what you get when you let your heart win. #
  • 02:56 I do everything wrong. I give up. #
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Saturday, November 14th, 2009
11:02 am - Twitter posts
  • 11:14 Whoops typo. :-P #
  • 14:06 Dicey, you try to give us too much information at once. #
  • 16:19 Scrabble cake! My friends are fucking awesome. #
  • 18:18 Dietzal is the correct term for what a quetzal eats. #
  • 21:52 Yay! My reiumbursement check for the posters came in. #
  • 22:35 Tweeting for 11 months, 16 hours, 23 minutes, 32 seconds (December 13, 2008). How about you? bit.ly/eC942 #
  • 22:53 Rolling Stone, you fail. 100 greatest singers of all time: Bob Marley is 19 but Whitney Houston is 34 and Mariah Carey 79??? #
  • 09:45 @sporcle This is SO HARD! bit.ly/11k2H0 #
  • 10:58 This is an excellent relaxing morning: Fried egg sandwich, laundry, and Gilmore Girls. #
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Friday, November 13th, 2009
11:02 am - Twitter posts
  • 12:34 Optima is like an underwear commercial #overheardinclass #
  • 15:31 Currently tweeting about a presentation in class on Twitter. #
  • 15:31 11% of users are between 12 and 17 years of age. #
  • 15:37 Ha! Apparently Republicans created fake accounts and posted false Tweets in 2008 to make Democrats look bad. In yo' face, GOP! #
  • 15:45 Okay. Presentation over. That's all that was really interesting, except that the company all uses Macs. #
  • 18:18 Going to write a board ed then get started on my Penguin book. Woo. #
  • 18:24 This is a test of Twitter on Facebook. This is only a test. You may now return to your regularly scheduled Tweeting. #
  • 01:57 Somebody at lesbian karaoke told me tonight that I needed to hold the mic closer to my face because I sounded great. :) #
  • 10:56 A mocie based on Monopoly. This could either be incredibly stupid or really awesome. #
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Thursday, November 12th, 2009
11:01 am - Twitter posts

  • 21:03 So exciting! My very first freelance Penguin project arrived today. #

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Wednesday, November 11th, 2009
11:02 am - Twitter posts

  • 14:59 OMGs knitted Cthulhu cap!!! I love CMU. #

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Monday, November 9th, 2009
11:03 am - Twitter posts
  • 12:10 It is officially a beautiful day which officially sucks because I have Tartan. #
  • 00:02 Why are you always better than me? #
  • 08:47 Try as they may, my friends can't put me back together again because there are too many missing pieces. #
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1:19 am - Since Twitter is too brief an outlet
Last Monday night, I fell apart. I got drunk on tequila and I sobbed for more than half an hour. My friends had to take me home. They had to hold me up and remind me I wasn't the worthless, disgusting, unattractive waste of air that I felt like I was.

One person told me, after that night, that I must certainly have a powerful effect on people, that I had that many people who wanted to take care of me. But you know what I have to say? I was a mess. I was clearly not able to take care of myself at that moment. They are my friends, and they're human, so what else could they do? They held me up, walked me home, and cared for me because I was once again stupid and needy.

For more than a month, I have been nothing more than a needy, selfish, self-centered pile of shit. I keep falling apart and getting depressed and I don't know how to do anything else.

So what are these friends around me to do but remind me that I am a good person, and a good friend to them, and good at the things I do, and in all other ways just take care of me? For a month, I have made it clear to everyone around me that I can't take care of myself and I am a leech who takes from them because I can't survive on my own.

So here's yet another group of friends who tell me they love me and tell me I'm a wonderful friend. Here's another group of people who I have surrounded myself with, convincing myself that I matter to some people, convincing myself that I'm actually worth more than the air I take up. Here's another poor group of individuals who tell me that I light up rooms when I come in and that I fix problems and that I am compassionate and caring.

But where do they all go? When we separate, suddenly this group of people who felt like I could be so important to them disappear. Not completely, for I still get to see Twitters and Facebooks and hang onto their phone numbers and screen names like I could one day use it and pretend like I'm still worth something to them. But instead, I sit on AIM and look at my buddy list at all the friends from my past and watch as they think of nothing to say to me. And who am I to butt in where I'm not wanted and actually make them pretend they still think about me.

I can't imagine how much energy it must take to be my friend. I wholeheartedly apologize to everyone who has had to deal with me.

If only I knew how to shut off my feelings.

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Sunday, November 8th, 2009
12:02 pm - Twitter posts
  • 15:10 Woman in her 30s reading Twilight on a bus. *sigh* #
  • 17:44 There are Popes EVERYWHERE! #
  • 23:21 It's official: I'm Lou Costello reborn. #
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